Thursday, July 1, 2010

Doubt and Fear

Well, the time has possibly come to "put my money where my mouth is". I talk a good game. But, now that the possibility exists that I could get my hands on Cladribine (Leustatin), I'm scared to death.
This drug lowers the blood count, and it comes w/ a warning not to be exposed to anyone w/ a viral or bacterial illness, or any other sickness that is contagious. So, if I'm such a Godly person, why don't I trust Him and just move forward? With a kid possibly on the way, there's no question whether or not to try the new drug. I'll be a much better Dad off of some of these drugs that screw my mind and balance up.
I have to be here to be a good Dad, though.

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