Fear vs Faith

My wife has been handling the arrangements for us to become foster parents. It's getting closer & closer to a reality. Well, I've been focused on me & this disease. When she 1st brought up the idea I was against it due to my poor balance & weaknesses. At the same time, I felt selfish for being the reason her desire to be a mother may not ever actually happen.
With the possibility becoming closer to a reality, I've been balking. I've been praying, but the wrong way. I've been talking to God about why I didn't think I was a safe bet for a child. It's weird that it never occurred to me to talk to Him about overcoming my fear.
Well, I admitted my fear to my wife last night, & her response brought me to tears. She said she knew. Then she came over to me, got down on one knee, grabbed my hands & said, "We're a team".
Obviously, God spoke thru her at that moment. I've been almost at ease about the situation since. It's just amazing how my Lord can be so gentle, yet powerful in the same three words. And HE loves ME!! WOW!!

Differences?!

I watched Ben Stein's "Expelled", again. I noticed several of the atheists interviewed were cruel & insulting, calling believers stupid, ignorant &, "possibly", wicked. What's the purpose in being insulting? I care about their eternity, if they're wrong. Is that stupid? I thought being insulting or cruel was for the uneducated. At least I care about them.
By the way, go over to "Defying a Frightening Diagnosis" on Facebook. Read my story. If nothing else, it'll do my heart good to know I shared.

DIGGING A CHASM

Being Human

God's loved us since time began. He's done so much for me, and I continue to make the distance betw. us greater. I get so sick of being human sometimes. I'm so #*%@'d weak. I was actually dissapointed when I read that the Mayans probably weren't predicting the world's end. I was hoping they were right, & our family could all go together. We'd stop being so irresponsible w/ this planet He blessed us w/, too.
Well, I'll just have to keep trying & be patient.

High Recommendation

I've been deeply saddened by the direction our country/world seems headed. I read, again, that a man had been arrested for molesting a child. This, among other things, just sickens me. Justify it any way it can be justified. But, WRONG is WRONG! Bad childhood, drugs, alcohol, whatever, competent adults have the ability to make choices. I know I'm wrong. But, I pity the person who EVER lays a hand on my child, should we ever have one. I'd be tried, not the offender. They'd never see the inside of a court room for some judge to do their defense attny a favor.
I was part of a small grp in church that began watching "The Truth Project". For whatever reason, they stopped w/ the series. So, I quit the group & received the disc set as a gift. I highly recommend this study of God's blueprint for life. It seeks to help us gain a deeper relationship w/ our Creator. Folks may not like some of it, and it is fairly long, 8 discs. But, stick w/ it. We're walked thru what has gone wrong...and pay attention. The gentleman uses the ACTUAL Constitution, the ORIGINAL Webster's Dictionary & other original documents to guide us thru our pitfalls as a people. Make a decision when the set is finished (Go to TheTruthProject.org & Focus on the Family). It has been an in depth, wonderful study. I doubt there will be much regret.

Stayin' warm in 2012....

Heating oil has reached a level that we can't afford. I'm too expensive for the large deliveries, especially at nearly $4/gallon. There's a minimum 100 gal order. I can't find a legit on-line bus. to help w/ finances. So, we're looking into larger indoor units for next yr.. Being on Interferon makes being cold a real booger. It starts from the bone and works its way out, somewhat like the opposite of a hot flash, and takes forever to warm up (I can't stand A/C any more, except in SC). We're praying for good ideas, or someone who has a good idea. I am working on small purchases every wk or so, 5 gal.. But, even that's digging into our budget. $20 for 5 gal.?!! We're gonna go broke just trying to stay warm.
Well, we have faith, and their are folks who have it a whole lot worse. Like I said at Thanksgiving, "Thank You for this life and all its gifts, Father".

Atheism, Agnosticism, Fighting Faith

I've been thinking (and it makes my head hurt). Many folks just will not accept faith. They argue & expend much energy in fighting a belief in God. This is really quite sad. If you think about it, what they're fighting against is Love.

Thanksgiving

It's November 24, 2011. Thanksgiving Day in most of North America. I have no problem thinking of a number of things I'm grateful for. God has truly blessed me in many ways. HE loves me and will forgive me thru His Son's blood. I have a wonderful, loving, supportive, beautiful wife. The same goes for our family-loving and supportive. We live in a place where God's beauty is on display daily, The Blue Ridge Mountains. I have one of exceedingly few doctors that recognized a disease that otherwise would've killed me before my 50th B-day. Interferon has stabilized and kept the disease in check for over 2 yrs, now. We are part of a church family that encourages and helps us build a better, loving relationship w/ our Father/God. We do not want for food or clean water. We have warm, comfortable clothing, a  roof over our heads and oil in a furnace that works. We have a fantastic landlord, who's concerned about our being warm.
Last, but not least, there's always "Curry", our Yorkie. He honestly seems to know when we need comfort, a smile or a laugh. He knows how to bring those results on, too.
Yep. I'm an extremely blessed man.
Thank YOU for this life, Father. You've been far more than generous and patient. Thank You for helping me to see that. I'm a better man, because of You.